I fail myself.

Sometimes I push myself too much, sometimes I'm just a lazy ass.

Currently I'm a lazy ass and I really need to change that. I can't believe I'm failing a college class already. How depressing. I literally wanted to just cry. I dropped it with a W, but still I'm ashamed. I asked a few people what should I do, I'm already on the verge of staying back 3 years in De Anza, and now I'm pretty sure. BS. Too much classes i need to take in order for me to transfer, and the fact that I want to transfer to UC Berkely, however, is afraid so my back up plan is to transfer to UC Irvine,  Menlo, or Keller, which adds more classes. Oh and the fact that I need both Statistics, and Calculus and I'm only in Algebra! FML Oh and 3 years of Foreign Language (I only had 2 years of Spanish and I am not going to take my 3rd year of Spanish in college, since I didn't really learn anything back in high school. I just got Lucky) I suck at math and Foreign Language =( It's a whole different world for me when I'm trying to learn it. Sometimes... I doubt myself... and sometimes I want to give up and wish everything would just go away, but I know shouldn't. I have to remember that I'm a grown up now. I know that if i want something, I need to do my best, I gotta keep pushing myself, and never give up.

Gotta Stay positive from now on.